♥ Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........I'm going crazy...........
27 Nov 2010, 6:18 pm
GOD!!!! WHERE ARE U?
PLEASE TAKE ME OUT OF HERE PLEASE..!!!
PLEASE TAKE ME WITH U...
I CAN'T STAND ANYMORE..
I'M CRAZY..I'M STRESSSSSSED...
I'M SAD...I'M BROKEN HEARTED..
I DUNNO WAT SHOULD I DO..
NO ONE CAN HELP ME..
I'M IN DIFFICULT POSITION..T.T
BUT NO ONE UNDERSTAND ME...NO ONE.................................!!!!
I KNOW U ALL LOVE ME..EVEN FOR MY SAKE..I KNOW DAT..
I NOTICE DAT..!!
BUT PLEASE DUN FORCE ME...PLEASE...
I WANT..I DO WANT TO TAKE HEED OF UR ADVICES..BUT MY HEARTTTTTTT..
I HAV MY OWN REASONS.. T.T
I DUNNO HOW TO EXPLAIN IT..I 'M REALLY STRESSSSSS..
STRESSSSS TO THE MAXXXXX.....
U R NOT ME..
U DUNNO HOW'S MY FEELL NOW...
I'M NOT DEFENDING HIM..
BUT I JUST FOLLOW MY HEART..I KNOW MY HEART BEST..T.T
U ALL INSIST ON FORCING ME TO CHOOSE ONE..
I'D RATHER CHOOSE NO ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !!!!!
LET ME BE THE BAD GUY...
LET ME BEAR THIS ALL..
LET ME SUFFER FROM THIS..
I DUN BLAME ANYONE..
ALL MY FAULT..!!
I'LL BEAR THIS ALL..
I DUN WANT ANY OF U GET HURT..I DUN WANT..
I DUN WANT U ALL SUFFER TOO..
I DIDN'T MEAN TO SAY THIS ALL..I DIDN'T MEAN TO HURT U ALL..
BUT
I JUST CAN'T HELP MYSELF..:(
I'M REALLY AFRAID DAT MY PARENTS, MY FAMILY WILL KNOW THIS MATTER..
I WISH THIS MATTER WILL VANISH FROM HERE..
I BEG U ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL...
I REALY BEG U ALLL.....I BEG UUUUUUUUUUUUUUU..
LET ME SETTLE IT MYSELF..
I NEED TIMES..T.T
HERE..I JUST WANNA SAY :
SORRY FOR MY STUBBORN..
SORRY FOR LETTING U ALL DOWN..
SORRY FOR LETTING U ALL WORRIED BOUT ME..
I'M JUST TOO SAD..TOO SAD TOO HURT TO FACE U ALL..SORRY :(
LET TIMES HEAL MY WOUNDS FIRST..T.T
AND LAST...
I LOVE U ALL..I REALLY DO..T.T
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♥ HAPPY??
15 Nov 2010, 9:46 pm
well..
This song tells about how's my feeling now..
open link to watch :
Someone once told me that you have to choose what you win or lose, you can’t have everything
And, don’t you take chances, you might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain ’cause love won’t set you free
I could stand by the side and watch this life pass me by
So unhappy, but safe as could be
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge-my feet run outta ground?
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound!
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
'Cause I'm just trying to be Happy, yeah
Just wanna be Happy, yeah
Holding on tightly
Just can’t it let go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, oh
Well, all these days they feel like they’re the same
Just different faces
Different names
Get me outta here
Well, I can’t stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by... pass me by!
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge-my feet run outta ground?
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound!
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
'Cause I’m just trying to be...Happy!
Oh, Happy, ooh
So many turns that I can't see, like I'm a stranger on this road,
but don't say victim...don't say anything
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge-my feet run out of ground?
I gotta find my place!
I wanna hear my sound!
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me-I just wanna be Happy!
Ooh yeah!
Happy!
Oh!
Happy!
I just wanna be... oh... I just wanna be... Happy
Da-da-dah, Happy..
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♥ -BLANK-
, 8:28 pm
Well..it's has been a long time dat I didn't enter here, (MY BLOG).
got no time to update actually..
Along these days, so many things happened...
too long to tell..or maybe I just can't explain it one by one..Fiuh..
Family? Friendship? Relationship? Work?
I dun even know well..
just a word in my mind now..
- BLANK -
Well, maybe I can tell 'bout
The WORST thing dat had happened to me..
Let me introduce someone 1st..
Here she is..
I usually call her PHEI CE..
I've known her for about a year more..since I stepped on a company calls PT.KMS..
(she was a one of d KMS's staff too)
For me, she's just like my sibling, my sister..
We two get along very very well..
I dote,love, n respect her as my own sister..
even closer than my own blood sister..
Being with her...
I feel really comfort, I feel really free, I feel really blessed, I feel really warm,
n d most important n appropriate thing is "I can be MYSELF".
I can say wat I want, I can do wat I want to her..
I neva hide anything from her..
I tell my everything to her, n so does she..
Got no any secrets between us I think..=)
whenever I feel happy or sad, she's d one who I tell to..
She's d one who I share my HAPPINESS n SORROW most..
but now everything changes..since she resigned that day..
she left d company for a private reason..
(or maybe I can say dat she was harmed by someone)
A DEVIL FOR SURE!!huh..
HATEEEE dat DEVIL..!!
we all really can't bear to apart with phei ce..really..
we even cry when she bid farewell with us..
too sad to be apart..hikz
Now..we got very rare chances to meet, to talk, to chat, to share..hikz..
Feel very alone without her in dat office..
Sadddddddd... T.T
but, I must be Happy for her..
she got a new life, new task, new chance..
here I wish her Success in everything..n of course d Happy Marriage..
well...I do wanna thank to phei ce..
thank for guiding me, thank for being my listener, thank for supporting me, thank for accompanying me..
thank for ur EVERYTHING..
Still missing u much2...
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